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Friday, July 07, 2006 Poor.. what is poor? why are u poor? poor, a word that feels like an insult to mi. poor, a word that makes mi fall flat on my face poor, a word that should never be mentioned to others. poor, a humiliation. poor, a word that breaks my heart. do i have a choice if i am poor? do i have a choice if ppl look down on mi? do i have a choice if it is my burden and not urs? do i have a choice to make u not mention my fate to others? do i have a choice to shut u up? do i? my life was never my choice ever since i was born. it never was wad i chose it to be, it was not chosen by mi, but was given to mi by the ones above. a shortage, a missing piece, a piece that makes mi feel like shit. it never was wad i wan it to be. it never was wad i wan it to end, it will never be the same. ever, again. i close my ears, i listen hard, i try to figure out wad's there. i try to figure out my fate. all i hear is,' u are poor and that's fate!' i try to shake that voice out of mi. i try to hide my identity. i try to make myself transparent was it my fault? was it ur fault? it never was wad i wanted to hear. it never was wad i expected u to say. it never was wad i want others to know except u. my nightmare. my curse. this is the curse that i have to deal with throughout my life. u broke my will, u broke my strength. it has never been the same again. i never will be who i am again. i have no face to face the world. i feel so humiliated. i feel so POOR. a humiliation hidden in mi. endless death, the endless death that makes my endless pain continue again. pls make the pain go away.. if onli. i hope, if onli....
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